Joaquin Phoenix's Joker inspired me to do my very first cosplay makeup!

Dear Diary,

I am not a DC Comics fan, not even their films. Like, people hate for not giving it a chance... until I saw Joker's trailer. Its cinematic vibe lured me in and even though I am not that familiar with the character, I still went to the movies to see it.

Since it would be coming from someone who doesn't have a deeper knowledge of the character being portrayed, a character who had been part of most of my generation's childhood, I am embedding Josh Brolin's post. Anj (www.lilmisswonderwoman.com) even asked who the better Joker was but I know that my opinion doesn't matter anyway so I didn't dare to answer that. :P Lol, serving you Thanos for a DC movie review but whatever!

He explained it really well here. I feel like it's similar to the Netflix series '13 Reasons Why' in a way that people say it's brutal, won't even watch it, and have things to say about it, but it's actually the reality that most people try to hide and deny.

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To appreciate “Joker” I believe you have to have either gone through something traumatic in your lifetime (and I believe most of us have) or understand somewhere in your psyche what true compassion is (which usually comes from having gone through something traumatic, unfortunately). An example of dangerous compassion would be to, say, make a film made about the fragility of the human psyche, and make it so raw, so brutal, so balletic that by the time you leave the theatre you not only don’t want to hurt anything but you desperately want an answer and a solution to the violence and mental health issues that have spun out of control around us. This film makes you hurt and only in pain do we ever want to change. It’s all in the irony of trauma — a fine line between the resentment of wanting to hurt society back for raping you of a decent life, for not protecting you, and accepting what feels like alien feelings with softening to those others who seem freakish in our era of judgment, and digital damnation. Like kids in Middle School: man, they can just be mean. For no reason. And, sometimes, those awful little clicky kids breed an evil in someone that rages much later, when everyone pretends we are all back to normal, when we all thought it had just manned up and gone away. We have a habit of hating and ostracizing and dividing and sweeping our problems under the rug. Joker, is simply lifting the rug and looking underneath it. Nothing more. Nothing less. It’s there.

A post shared by Josh Brolin (@joshbrolin) on Oct 5, 2019 at 7:34am PDT

I created this look not only to express my passion for makeup but also to say that I see you - to those who abuse their strength and power to belittle the disabled, those who use their advantages to have the upper hand for personal gain instead of extending it to the ones in need, those who disregard the fact that mental illness is real and use it against the real victims.

The worst part of having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't. ~Joker 2019 

Everyone should be able to live without fear, without always watching their back, or without needing to tiptoe everywhere they go.

I have high hopes that someday, we will live in a world where those who see what I see will become the majority. It will be all thanks to these works of art.

G.